My Best Friend

I have had the same best friend for the past 10 years. In this blog I will call her "Mrs. Busybee" or just BB. (BB can also stand for Best Buddy!) I call her Mrs. Busybee because she is the BUSIEST person I have ever known. She juggles family, work, church, friends, groceries and extra curricular activities and still has the grace and time to chat with me through it all.




Our friendship began when we met in college. She stayed in the dorms while I was renting a house off campus. I sometimes felt like I was missing out on all the fun because I was not living in the dorms. BB would invite me to the dorms and we would have sleepovers. On the weekends we were either at my Dad's house or at her parents' house. We worked together at the same day care while attending college.


BB got married and had her first baby while we were still in college. I was the FIRST non-relative to hold that baby. It went: 1. BB & her husband, 2. BB's parents, 3. Husband's parents, 4. ME!!!! BB has always made me feel like a part of her family.


BB is always there for me. When I had to have surgery get my appendix removed, she brought me flowers and visited me every day in the hospital.

When I turned 21, I went through a very rebellious time in my life. I began to party alot more and go to class alot less. Even though BB disagreed with my choices she never judged me. She just kept on loving me just the way I was.



BB has laughed with me, cried with me, held my hair back when I was drunk, and has listened to me complain endlessly about how unfair life is. She prayed AND fasted for me when I was struggling with my faith in God. She was there with me when I stood up in church a couple of months ago and gave my testimony about how God has changed my life. Between the two of us we've been through it all! Here are some of the things we've been through and helped each other with:

• rebellious years
• fights with parents
• fights with siblings
• getting married
• getting divorced
• getting remarried
• in-laws
• ex-husbands
• ex-boyfriends
• struggles with infertility
• losing jobs
• starting new jobs
• losing loved ones
• death of a father in law
• death of 2 grandparents
• babysitters
• daycare
• child support
• homework
• going to church
• heartache and let downs
• joys and victories

You name it we've been through it.

So to my BB, I want to say THANK YOU. Thank you doesn't seem like enough to say, its just too simple. For all you have been and continue to be for me THANK YOU. For believing in God for me when I had no faith left, THANK YOU. For being my sister, prayer warrior, accountability partner, ( I could go on and on). I love you more than words could ever say!

I will close by sharing a card that BB sent to me back in 2003. She may not even remember sending it to me, but I'm very sentimental and always hold on to things like this:

"We're not just friends, we're tell-it-like-it-is friends. And boy, do I ever need that! We can be politically incorrect, complain about men, and talk about our private thoughts and feelings. We both understand that the sands of time are shifting, hair can actually 'go bad,' and one's memory can come and...whatever. We don't let each other wear something that's all wrong or keep silent if one of us is making a bad decision. Its good that we can cry in front of each other without embarrassment, knowing that we'll be understood, and right or wrong, we know we'll always be there for each other. Time and time again you've touched my heart with your sweetness, your caring, and your thoughtfulness. I'm so grateful to have a friend like you. You're a rare and wonderful person and I'll treasure you forever." Kay Andrew

At the bottom of the card BB added in her own handwriting:

"I miss seeing you and I found this and it said just what I needed it to. Thank you just doesn't seem like enough."

Love,

BB

September, 2003

All I have to say is, right back at you BB!!!

New Beginnings

This is my first blog in a long while. DH (Dear Husband) and I have been through alot this last month. We went for a routine prenatal checkup on May 3rd and the ultrasound did not detect a heartbeat. Our baby did not make it.

I was shocked and heartbroken. We had just seen the heartbeat three weeks before. I had to have a D & C on May 4th.

DH and I have been very sad. However, we are trusting in God. He gave us the desire to become parents and He is still faithful!

Many people have asked me how I made it through this past month. First and foremost it is because of God. I have found that my days are so much better when I pray and read my bible.

So here are a few things that I am doing that have really helped me during this difficult time.

After I recooperated from my surgery, I joined the YMCA. I've continued eating healthy and not drinking soda. In the last 3 weeks I have lost 11 pounds! I have really enjoyed my workouts. I feel so much better both physically AND mentally.

I also purchased a tanning package and have been tanning every few days or so.

DH says I'm not allowed to complain about things that are self-inflicted. So I will not be talking about how BADLY I was burned by the tanning bed the first few times I went.

I am going to church every Sunday and spending much time with family and friends. DH and I are so thankful for the love and support that we've received from all our loved ones. We are so very blessed!

Trying to get bloggy with it

I know I know, there is a very big gap between my first post and this one...and I apologize.... Its the first time in my life that I've ever had a cold, and I am unable to take cold medicine!!! I am very happy to be on the mend now and trying to get back to real life...

Something very exciting happened this week, I heard my baby's heart beat for the first time!!! This was a big deal because the chance of miscarriage goes down to 3% after a heartbeat is detected! (Can you tell I've been reading my pregnancy books?) We're so excited.

Speaking of pregnancy books, I'm teasing my husband because he is not reading them. You see, I am what is called a "Type A" Personality. I like to plan, make lists, brainstorm, plan some more, and be completely prepared for any and everything that comes along. So instead of watching reruns on tv after work every night, I'm reading every book about pregnancy that I can get my hands on. I'm listen to pregnancy podcasts in my vehicle every day. My husband however is much more phlegmatic than I am, and is being very zen about this whole experience..

So I have been pestering him to read the baby books...just starting with the daddy chapters! He had a hard time going to sleep the other night and I said, "You would be able to sleep better if you would read the baby books" haha This weekend he was mowing grass and weed eating, and the weed eater quit working. My response, "the weed eater would not break if you would read the baby books" The Cubs lost to the Reds the other night, and you guessed it, I said, "The Cubs would not lose if you were reading the baby books.." Okay so the last one was a stretch, but you get the picture!!! I am happy to say that he has in fact started reading the daddy chapters of my baby books... Its a great start!

Welcome to my Blog!

Okay... so here goes! I'm going to apologize in advance for the content of this blog. I have no idea what I'm doing... I just know that I have many stories to tell. I also have ALOT going on in my life right now. So I will tell you up front, you will probably see a trend for around the next 34 or so weeks...a pregnancy trend!! Yes, I am now 6 weeks pregnant after struggling with infertility issues. However, please do not think that this blog will just be about pregnancy. I have many different interests, beliefs, hobbies, and activities that I enjoy. All these things make me who I am, and my blog would not be complete without them. My life is about to change DRAMATICALLY, but I firmly believe that I will still be ME, just a newer, more grown up version. (Probably a more exhausted verson though). I am so excited to become a Mom. This is all I've ever wanted. When I was a little girl, if someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer was simple "I want to be a Mommy!" I don't care about being rich or famous, having material things or the nicest house, car, etc on the block. (We can't take any of those things with us when we die!) All I ever wanted on this earth was a husband and children. A FAMILY. I thank God every single day for answering my prayers!!!! Everything I am and have is because of Him.

I am excited to start this blog, I was inspired by my sister in law's blog that she started recently. (Even though I know I am not even a little bit as creative as what she is.)

So let the fun begin!!!