Probable cause #1: Beginning in June I worked an INSANE amount of overtime at my job. No exaggeration. I was in need of an intervention. In the month of July I only took 3 days off (and they were not weekend days). Most days I went to work at 10:00am and did not clock out until 1:00am. On the upside, this dedication to my job made me very GOOD at my job and my employer took notice...which leads to:
Probable cause #2: In August, I was promoted to a Supervisor position. This was a big deal for me. I worked very hard for it and was very excited. However, was I prepared for it? Probably not. It was a very stressful job. The call center environment is in itself very stressful, but when you're a supervisor you have to take phone calls from customers who, more often than not, are EXTREMELY upset. They have asked to talk to a supervisor because they did not like the answer the previous rep gave them. So I would then proceed to
Probable cause #3: On August 27th, I found out that I am PREGNANT. Yes, pregnant. A baby conceived the good old fashioned way. No fertility medications or procedures. A miracle! (My infertility struggle was extensive and will be covered in another blog to come... Stay tuned!) DH and I were shocked to say the least. Shocked and thrilled. So now we've made it to September.
Probable cause #4: Here come the pregnancy symptoms! I will try to keep this as non-graphic as I can. Let's just say from about 6 weeks pregnant moving forward, I threw up almost every day. I've been in and out of the hospital several times since then. The first hospital stay was in Mid-September for a 3 day visit. I want to spare you my complete medical history so I will just tell you I had a pre-existing stomach condition that has made this pregnancy alot harder for me that what it should have been. I am 23 weeks pregnant now and still struggling with these symptoms. I have had to go to the hospital about every 1-2 weeks to get IV fluids. For this reason I had to step down from my supervisor position at work and take medical leave. Which leads to my last point...
Probable cause #5: I have a hard time being transparent. I tend to be a little insecure and so when I start to talk about my personal life, I get anxious about what people will think of me. For example, regarding probable cause #4, my inner dialogue would go something like this: "Wow, I sound like such a wimp. Like the only sick pregnant person who ever lived. People will think I'm a slacker because I'm not working. 'Suck it up' they will say. 'We are not really THAT interested in your life. Why are you complaining? Haven't you wanted a baby your whole life? Haven't you whined and cried for the last 3 years about NOT being able to have a baby? What are you going to do now??' ETC ETC ETC. Sheesh, talk about low self-esteem. I promise I'm better than I used to be and I AM working on it.
The truth is, I don't have all the answers. However, I feel that I have a very blessed life and it will be a terrible shame to keep it to myself any longer. Its not my intention to turn this into a Mommy Blog, though I'm sure many times it WILL be one. I am interested in so many different things and have many stories to tell, few of which are baby related as of yet. So here I go on my journey to be a reformed blogger. Wish me luck!
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One of these days, you'll have so many followers that feel like "friends" that you won't realize that you're talking to virtual strangers. It has made me way less self-conscious when I'm blogging!
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